I can't help it.

Whenever I hear that sickening name, regardless of its context, my blood boils. It's been almost 3 years now, but some things just don't change. I guess it's just because of you, and your connection with her. What she used to do in the past. How she irritated and annoyed me to no end. The very fact that she belongs to you now. **** it.

I'm such a selfish bitch. But I guess when you realise that the person you hate most on earth starts taking driving lessons from YOUR very own uncle, you can't help it but feel terrible. You wish she would drop dead while driving in the car. You wish she would bang into a tree. I don't know why, it's just that selfish bit of me at work. I need therapy badly. Where is the connection though? Isn't it good that your uncle gets to earn extra money?

Yeah, I guess. But... just not her.

I still feel terrible.

My dear friends, remember never to name your daughter Eileen. It's just like a swear word to me. For all you know, ten years later when you read the paper, you see the headline: "WOMAN STRANGLES BEST FRIEND'S 3 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER TO DEATH, BECAUSE VICTIM SHARED SAME NAME WITH HER ENEMY".

X X X X X

Xavier Wong: I am so glad you found your special someone after so long. Time to stop dating and flirting!!! And, who cares what other people think, as long as you both are happy. As long as you are happy. You know I will always love you but don't you dare ditch me for N!!!!!!! Heh, just an early-bird warning ^_^

Kaelyn: Did you have a good TIM-e? :> Heard about the long drive around the country. Have fun!

Perrin: Still breathing?

ElmoDuck: Happy to have you back. Take your time to settle down before meeting me, okay? :>

The birthday prep is killing me. Some people just don't want to reply me. So be it. I am striking you off my invite list.

I hope everything turns out well. And no, I refuse to believe I hit 21 in 7 days. Seven days.

I am a selfish bitch.

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid of what you are.

Mariah Carey - Hero.