you never cried because you were too terrified of everything to let yourself feel!
you'd have to learn crying from a manual!
chop onions!

i never cried because i was too tough --- but i felt everything.
every slight, every pressure, every vague competition.
but i fought.
and i won!
and the people i fought were happy that i won!
happy! .... after a while!!!

alfred, do you have any idea how many people in this town worship me?

maybe that's the attraction --- you don't worship me.
maybe i'd quit loving you if you did worship me.
maybe.... i'd lose all respect for you if you did all the things i want you to do.

alfred, you've got to change!
listen... i'm not saying i'm better or stronger than you are.
it's just that we --- you and i --- have different temperaments.
and my temperament is better and stronger than yours!!!

you're a wall!
you don't fight!
you hardly even listen!

dear God, will somebody please explain to me why i think you're so beautiful?

[little murders]

i did the above monologue for my drama exam a week ago. thought i'd show you what the lines were like.... boy! i actually typed all that out without referring. my memory not bad eh? haha. oh... what would i pay ABBA to sing to me "you are the drama queen, young and...." oops! before i get rotten apples and eggs thrown at me, i'd better not continue the word after "young". heh.

today is saturday, the 14th of september. exams are in 9 days. N-I-N-E days.
what do i have left to do?

2 very disgusting environment projects that weigh tonnes on my shoulders, thats 1 (okay, 2) of the very important things... undone, untouched and unthought.

history of ideas 1200 word essay on seneca and his views on anger (can't his parents just SLEPT STILL on bed that fateful night??? SHIT!!!)

not to mention, lots and lots of homework. ah yes. PSYCHOLOGY. hmm....

can't get the depeche mode song out of my head.

i want somebody to share, share the rest of my life
share my innermost thoughts, know my intimate details
someone will stand by my side, and give me support
and in return, he'll get my support
he will listen to me, when i want to speak
about the world we live in, and life in general...
[somebody - depeche mode]

i changed all the "she"s to "he"s, by the way.